Chapter 3 – Inner Conflicts
Alan came and picked me up from my house and we both went down to the movies together. Before that, we both got a little hungry and decided to take a quick snack.
“Hey sweetheart, why is it that you’ll always have something on your mind?” he asked suddenly.
“I don’t know. Maybe I was made to think all sorts of ridiculous things.” I shrugged and continue to munch on my sandwich.
“You shouldn’t you know. For some reason, all your curious thoughts are all on the negative side. You’re usually really positive.”
“I know. But I just can’t help it. So many things have been happening lately. It’s kind of impossible to not think.”
“Like?” his tone starting to question.
“Things that are not related to what you do. It’s more or less what I’m involved in. College isn’t that easy you know.” I tried keeping the real reason.
“Tell me everything. I know you’d keep some things from me but at least I get a rough clue right? I am your boyfriend.” He gave a smirk while expecting my reply.
“Okay, fine, you win.” I said with a sigh.
I explained my situation, careful not to let the whole cat out of the bag.
“You know, you should really stop thinking. Honestly, one day whatever you think now might happen.” Alan commented with a straight face.
“I know, but what can I do? I keep thinking. I tried stopping, I just can’t.” I said with a gloomy face.
“Well, that’s why I’m here. I’m here to help you and support you. You know that.” He said with a shy smile on his face.
“I know. And you know that I love you. It’s just that, sometimes I don’t want you involved in a lot of things. It might cause a lot of trouble.”
“You’re my girlfriend. I’m suppose to help you. That’s why I’m here.” He said almost immediately.
I just kept quiet and smiled at him. Knowing that whatever I say won’t change his mind.
“Okay, I’ll try to stop. And you’ll be the first one I call when I need someone okay?” the gloominess in me just faded away.
“I knew my charms were hard to resist.” He said, flattering himself.
“Shut up. I know.”
And with that, we finished our meal and headed off.
